It’s the last day of my Christmas Vacation. I’ve already received countless emails about courses, syllabi, reading that should be finished or reviewed before class. This is probably one of the most nerve-wracking feelings. Sure, I’m extremely excited to be back at school. I’m at my best when I have countless projects to tackle, a schedule set in place, and all of my friends or family or people to talk to around me. But how can I get back into that place? When will I reach the age where I never get homesick?
This week, I will be constantly trying to figure out when to study, when to work out, what to eat (healthily), how much time to spend on each class, how much to freak out. Ok, just kidding on the last one, but I am a perfectionist, so it might happen.
Probably thinking, “What’s the point of the title?” Well, it’s just that. I HATE to say goodbye. I don’t like knowing it’s the last time I may ever see someone I love. I despise knowing we are all aging and it will never be the same again. Usually when I leave home, I’m a mess but this time was alright. I had Meghan with me (the calm, cool, collected child who never seems to get things wrong. That’s what I’m for I guess, the guinea pig) and we were heading to my grandparents in Santa Barbara. But leaving SB was a little tough. I know it’s not the same to spend every day doing the same thing, I just didn’t want to return to reality so soon.
Life as Peter Pan might be pretty interesting, but then again, he doesn’t get to see and experience the beauty of getting older. See, if I hadn’t aged, I might still be stuck in that messed up world of high school. Those of you still in high school, just keep persevering life gets better. There is a world of opportunities out there waiting for you.
It’s tough to know that my school breaks are soon to be over. I guess as kids we don’t adequately appreciate the days and weeks reprieve from school. But, instead of moaning and groaning, I plan to enjoy each day, each moment, and yes, each class and homework/test assignment.
Rather than constantly looking at the past (which I have done and has only caused me grief), I plan to look to the future. I have lists upon lists and countless ideas of what I would like to do. Just look at my Pinterest boards for instance. Simply browsing them gives me a whirl of inspiration, a leap of faith, and an ounce of drive. What can I accomplish? Who can I meet? What can I make? How can I grow? Sounds like a solid plan, don’t you think?
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”
– Albert Einstein
So, not exactly my usual postings, but I’ll be whipping up a couple of recipes and the result of my t-shirt blanket extravaganza (and mistake…oops) later today!